Daniel’s Journal #34 – Truth, Lies, and Enemies

There are some things you can’t avoid. The truth, for one, is not one of these things. You can dodge facts like Neo dodges bullets. You can hide in a pond from a swarm if you have a reed to help you breath like a cartoon character. You can get a shield to hide behind.

But the lies… Those you can’t avoid.

Here’s an interesting thing about me: I have no idea what I’m doing on any given day. Will I wake up manic or… otherwise. I’ve been lucky as of late. I finished a novel I’ve been working on, and I wrote a 10k word short story this week. I feel like doing more, so much more. If only there were more hours in the day and my body didn’t need to sleep.

But I can’t dodge forever. Sooner or later, something has to break. It always does. For some, stability comes easy. For others, it’s like a house of cards. When it falls, you can either pick up your cards and start building again, or you can punch someone in the face for opening the window and letting in the breeze.

This will make little sense to most, but I know there are those of us who are always stacking the cards, seeing how tall their little houses can get before they topple. I won’t ever reach the ceiling, but I can try. It’s good to have goals, even if you know you’ll never reach them. Right?

Then there’s the enemies: Jealousy, anger, depression, complacency, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. They come when you least expect them, creeping on invisible wires. You shrug them off, but it just makes them hungrier.

And don’t you dare call them “demons”. I’ve met demons, and they were a hell of a lot nicer than what people give them credit for.

That about sums up what I wanted to say. If you got something from this steam of consciousness, I applaud you. I can’t even make sense of it, and it came from my mind!

-Daniel Aegan
3/15/19

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One comment

  • It’s absolutely crucial to have goals, to reach, to thrive, to keep on moving regardless. You’re exactly right.

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